Coloured People, Colourful God

There's such a vast array of people here at school. I find it interesting to sit back and watch people. Yes, "people watching" has always been a hobby of mine but it's accentuated in a place like a Bible college. I struggle with adapting to my role as a "mature" student and taking on the responsiblities that come with it. I've caught myself turning to God and to people for advice and using them as a leaning post. It's not the easiest thing to do. Since leaving Bible school four years ago I have slowly and steadily drawn inward. I've shy'd away from the people that love me most. Maybe it's because I'm hiding something. Perhaps I feel weak when I go to people because I can't deal with everything on my own. Or maybe I don't think that people can relate to my circumstances, the situations I find myself in. I think it's a combination of all of these things and possible mory. As I turn not to myself but to God and to others, I find a sense of purpose that I haven't known in years. This is where I thrive but struggle the most. I know that being surrounded by Christians is the perfect environment to deal with things in my life but at the same time it's gonna be tough to bring them out in order to have them dealt with. So I ask for your prayers as I find out who I am in Christ. God bless.