MMHMM

I've been going through a lot lately. Just trying to figure out where my life is headed and where God wants me and stuff. I know that He will use my life wherever I am but sometimes that is honestly not enough. I feel that I need to know where He is directing me re: a vocation/career. I have so many options--youth work, youth pastor, law enforcement, missionary, computer tech. I don't know where to start. I think I'd be good at any and all of those but what do I want to be doing in 10 years? I could narrow it down to 3. Anyway, it's so amazing to know that God is looking out for me in everything. As my eyes fix onto eternity and my reward for this race--that keeps me going. To know that I will be seeing God's face one day is beyond anything a mere human can imagine. That thought leaves me comforted and content being a child of God. Here is how I feel:

I've given up on giving up slowly. I'm blending in so you won't even know me. Apart from this whole world that shares my fate. And this one last bullet you mention. Is my one last shot at redemption. Cause I know to live you must give your life away. And I've been housing all this doubt. And insecurity. And I've been locked inside that house. All the while you hold the key. And I've been dying to get out. And that might be the death of me. And even though there's no way of knowing. Where to go I promise I'm going. Because I got to get out of here. I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake. I got to get out of here. And I'm begging you. I'm begging you. I'm begging you to be my escape. I've given up on doing this alone now. Cause I've failed and I'm ready to be shown how. You've told me the way, and now I'm trying to get there. And this life sentence that I'm serving. I admit, that I'm every bit deserving. But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair. Because I got to get out of here. Cause I'm afraid that this complacency is something I can't shake. I got to get out of here. And I'm begging you. I'm begging you. I'm begging you to be my escape. I am a hostage to my own humanity. Self detained and forced to live in this mess I've made. And all I'm asking is for you to do what you can with me. But I can't ask you to give what you already gave. I fought you. For so long. I should have let you win. Oh, how we regret those things we do. And all I. Was trying to do was save my own skin. Oh, but so were you.
-RK

Fans are enamored. New ones are discovered daily. Relient K released their album "mmhmm" earlier this month. I have only now begun to really listen to the words and the message. It is an amazing piece of craftsmanship! RK's musical talent complements the solid lyrics perfectly. You gotta listen to this one!