Birthday Blues

Hmm, well today was my 26th birthday. It was an okay day, kind of boring at times. I thought about my dad a lot today. It has really been hitting me a lot in the last week that dad is gone. My mind still thinks he's alive sometimes. I dream about dad quite a bit (probably 2-3 times a week). There is a re-occuring theme to my dreams--God has brought dad back to life and people are amazed at the power of God. When I wake, it usually takes a handful of seconds to realize that dad is still gone. Mom and I were talking tonight and she said she has had similar dreams. I think reality is setting in for us and we are missing dad more. We really believed that God would heal him. I think this is because, well for one, we know that God could have if that was His plan. Secondly, with all of dad's wisdom and knowledge, we figured that God would use Him for years to come. Thirdly, dad was still in the midst of a church ministry. The interm pastor has been around for a while but the church was still waiting for dad to return. This just goes to show that Gods plans and thoughts are so different than ours, He knows so much more than we do. But God is revealing to us the "why's" and His peace has never left us since February 28th. Mom and I were talking and we have to attribute the fact that we are not depressed or living in sadness due to your prayers on our behalf. For this, we thank you.

I worked the whole evening tonight with my support job. There was a party last night to celebrate my b-day but everyone was on their way home by 9:30pm! You know you and your friends are getting older when sleep is more of a priority than having fun. But I don't feel any older. I don't believe 26 is old. In fact I am very young. Jesus did not start his ministry on earth until he was 30. Life expectancy was a lot lower back then and so 30 would have been pretty late in life. But I that I am on the right track. God be free to use me how you would!